So I got to spend time with my family for a day and half in JB. They are back home now and I'm back in Singapore. Now I feel like shit. I miss my family and I'm not looking forward towards the next two weeks of work. Oh well, die ma die lorrrr... Just do ni. I wish I was working in Penang but Penang just can't afford to pay me like Singapore does. Dad says its not that much of a difference but I beg to differ. Maybe I should put everything to a halt and maybe go back to penang to be with family and Priya. I'll handle the shitty pay. Don't really have any plans for the future.
Next, Priya. Part of the reason I'm depressed at the moment. I miss her along with my family. The feeling to have someone who loves you with all her heart by your side is a feeling I yearn at the moment. There is so much I want to tell her but I'm just afraid ill break her heart. At the moment I don't have a desire to be married but there is nothing more Priya wants then to be married to me. How do I tell her I don't want her to convert? How do I tell my parents who are pretending she doesn't exist that I don't want to get married because my Church definitely wont allow inter religion marriage. No marriage no problems with her being a Hindu. My parents, the 2 person who I thought will support me in my love life seems to not want any part in it. Then I have Priya's dad doing the classic "i wanna see Priya married before i pass on" movie script. How do i tell a dying man No, i got no intentions to marry Priya cause all these religion complications? Am I being an ass denying a man his dying wish?
Fuck dude so much in my mind at the moment. Compared to the problems others are facing, mine is actually nothing lol but it keeps me up at night alot. Fricking laptop is busted and I'm writing my thoughts in my random blog.
Life. So many choices. Which is the right one?
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