Well i asked. She said yes. Few days later we got engaged. Now she's my fiancee. The road here was so difficult. Im grateful to her and her family for their understanding and support. Quit my job too and moved Andaz Singapore. Work is stressful but ill manage. Things are happening but somehow i feel lost all the time. Anyyyywaysss... Dec 7 2019. Ill be hers and she will be mine.

Stuck in between.

Well... The question is on hold for now. So much issues man. Apparently no matter which side I choose, I lose. I AM NOT THE BAD GUY HERE. Live for yourself.

Life update yet again.

6 more months have passed and I got promoted again. Holding a managerial level position is really hard especially for me. I always feel i am under qualified and lately i feel i have been distant with my family. Been awhile since i have gamed and i do not really have the mood for it any more and getting depressed from time to time doesn't really help. I used to have a goal but now I feel i am just heading with no destination in hand. Gotta work on my eating and spending habit as well. I am gonna pop the question this September and hopefully I can get her here by next year.

Ill let life flow on till the end of year and we shall see how. Change is good.

New year, new hope and goals

Been more than a year since i last wrote here. Crazy things happened along the way. Priya's dad passed away and on his last moment I promised him i will take care of her and i intent on keeping that promise. I love her with all my heart and I hope my family will see her as how i see her one day. Priya came to the terms of wedding and she seems content with what she have now but then again i think about marriage a lot nowadays. Hopefully by our 5th anniversary i can call Priya my wife. Then there is this religion problem. I really ought talk to a priest about this.



Work wise i am still uncertain. Don't get me wrong though, Ive been promoted 3 times now since joining the company but what now? What do I do now? Do i stay on or do look elsewhere for other opportunities. The same ol what am i doing with my life question. Wish i can just go back to Malaysia. I'll make sure it happens one day.


Since I broke up with Ana, I lost alot of weight and made myself look good. The motivation was there then. Being in a relationship now made me lazy. Need to find the motivation to shed all this extra weight.

Why me?

So I got to spend time with my family for a day and half in JB. They are back home now and I'm back in Singapore. Now I feel like shit. I miss my family and I'm not looking forward towards the next two weeks of work. Oh well, die ma die lorrrr... Just do ni. I wish I was working in Penang but Penang just can't afford to pay me like Singapore does. Dad says its not that much of a difference but I beg to differ. Maybe I should put everything to a halt and maybe go back to penang to be with family and Priya. I'll handle the shitty pay. Don't really have any plans for the future.


Next, Priya. Part of the reason I'm depressed at the moment. I miss her along with my family. The feeling to have someone who loves you with all her heart by your side is a feeling I yearn at the moment. There is so much I want to tell her but I'm just afraid ill break her heart. At the moment I don't have a desire to be married but there is nothing more Priya wants then to be married to me. How do I tell her I don't want her to convert? How do I tell my parents who are pretending she doesn't exist that I don't want to get married because my Church definitely wont allow inter religion marriage. No marriage no problems with her being a Hindu. My parents, the 2 person who I thought will support me in my love life seems to not want any part in it. Then I have Priya's dad doing the classic "i wanna see Priya married before i pass on" movie script. How do i tell a dying man No, i got no intentions to marry Priya cause all these religion complications? Am I being an ass denying a man his dying wish?


Fuck dude so much in my mind at the moment. Compared to the problems others are facing, mine is actually nothing lol but it keeps me up at night alot. Fricking laptop is busted and I'm writing my thoughts in my random blog.


Life. So many choices. Which is the right one?

Well, I've come a long way since I made this blog. Spent a year in the States and now been living in Singapore for 3 years working for Wolfgang Puck. Somehow I always feel a part of me is always empty. Don't get me wrong though. I love cooking but there is just something not right. Being away from my family and the girl i love is not easy.

Well... Yeah...

I forgot I had a blog...